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28/2/2018 0 Comments February 28th, 2018Yesterday afternoon, I had my annual physical. Oddly, I was excited about it. Prior to transitioning, I never went in for a physical. I just didn't care. This years physical went off without any issues. I am in good health. I talked with my GP about my upcoming orchiectomy and that I would need to be seeing her to get cleared for getting put under. We ran through what was involved a bit and then I headed home.
Before I made it home, my phone rang. It was the scheduling office. I have been approved by the insurance company! There was an opening 2 weeks out! I took it! I mentioned that I was on my way home from my physical and she said that the doctor might be able to roll that into the pre op checkup. I sent my doctor a message and she was able to do just that! On March 13th, I will be going under the knife and will officially have had Gender Confirmation Surgery! I am extremely excited about having this done, even though I am not looking forward to the recovery pain. I expect that won't be as bad as I am imagining, but I have 2 more days off to recover.
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19/2/2018 0 Comments Surgery, hopefully soon!Last Friday morning, I had a consult to have an orchiectomy! The doctor is extremely nice. He ran through the basics of what would happen. After he did his exam, and said everything looked fine, he sent my off to scheduling.
The person in charge told my that they now like to get the pre-approval from the insurance company before scheduling. She had sent my information off to the finance department already. She also gave me some special soap that I am supposed to was with the night before surgery. This morning, the finance person called and said she had submitted the paperwork. She also informed me that my case was pretty solid and I was likely to get the approval. I should know in about 2 weeks! Early this morning, I actually had a really weird dream. In the dream, I had to perform part of the surgery at home myself before going in. Not sure what that was about! I am anxious to get rid of my testicles. Right now, this is feeling like all the surgery I will need, but they will be doing the orchi in such a way that I could still have vaginoplasty in the future if things change for me. 13/2/2018 1 Comment Venus de MarsThis is a post about "might have been"s.
I have been extremely happy to have connected with Venus. I remember first meeting her 25+ years ago. As I remember it, it was at some sort of outdoor festival, possibly Pride. Her booth was filled with her artwork. I loved it. It was dark, horrific and really well done. We chatted a bit. I thought her are would work really well as illustrations for a friends new publishing venture. I probably got one of her cards, but never followed up with her. Some time later, I started hearing about a local band called All the Pretty Horses, that was fronted by a trans woman. That turned out to be Venus's band. It the time, I had been starting to push my gender boundaries. I was growing my hair out. I crossdressed heavily in the privacy of my home. I came out to most of my friends as a crossdresser. At the same time, I found myself EXTREMELY uncomfortable around other people that pushed the gender line. Over the years, All the Pretty Horses continued, and their popularity grew. I could never bring myself to listen. Fast forward to this past fall, and there is a big reception at the University of Minnesota for the Transgender Oral History Project. It was something that I absolutely had to attend. A friend and I did just that. It was an amazing evening of socializing and viewing the collection of transgender things that were on display. When the evening moved on to the formal part of the evening, Venus was one of the people presenting. She talked a bit of her life being out for nearly 30 years. Her life as on of the first out transgender musicians, followed be her performing a couple songs. Wow. She has the most intense voice! It shook me quite a bit. I wanted to talk to her that night, but she was deep in conversation with someone, so I moved on. About a month ago, I swung through the co-op and ran into her. The now not nearly as shy as she used to be, me started talking to her! We had a nice talk about the previous event, then she told me about a talk she was giving soon about the trans roots of punk! She told me to send her a message on Facebook about it. When I got home, I did just that! She cleared space off of her friends list so she could friend me! That felt really nice. The week before the talk, I sent her a message saying that if she needed any help, I would be happy to lend a hand. I was able to help her with shooting the video of the talk. Later the event moved to another location, where she read from the memoir she is writing. It was so strange hearing her describe so much of the scene I traveled around. A time when I was pushing my boundaries, but really not able to see what I really was. I am fully confident that we had a number of mutual friends at the time! After she had finished, we chatted a bit and we had a couple big hugs. I went home feeling so happy. A day or two later, I had remembered that the writer, Caitlin Kiernan, had a short lived band in the 90s. I gathered up what information I could find and sent it to Venus. She was excited to learn about a band she didn't know! I finally got around to buying some of her recordings. I have been mainlining them since I got them. After listening to them a couple times, I started thinking about how my life might have been if I could have faced those things back in the day! I got pretty emotional for a while, but it passed and I continued with my listening. Last Friday, I went to see her play at a coffee should. There were a number of other musicians on stage, all playing songs, one after the other. I decided to live stream Venus. I managed to get pretty good footage of all of her songs. The next day, she thanked my for that! I am not sure how much we will ever hang out, but I am glad to not be afraid to see her and really enjoy the company of someone that so much paved the way for all of us. 13/2/2018 2 Comments DisappointmentYesterday, I had an appointment with my HRT doctor. Overall, things are going just fine. We are keeping all the meds where they are, and talked about what to do once I have the orchiectomy. That is all good.
I was however very disappointed when she got to my breast measurements. Even though they are a bit fuller, the sizes really hasn't changed in a year. Since I have only been on HRT for about 15 months, I must say, I was a bit heartbroken. I am not looking for anything big, but really, can we get a bit more? I would love to get up to at least a solid B cup. I am close to that, but still closer to an A. With luck, after the orchi, the lack of testosterone in my system, followed by the then increase in estrodiol, will hopefully kick things up a notch. And speaking of the orchi, I have the consult bright and early Friday! Let's get those things out of the picture! |
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