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26/7/2017 0 Comments Remembering KitaroThe house has been so lonely without Kitaro. Sure, there is lots of activity, what with Anna, Uryuu and Opal, but there is a giant void.
He would always come running when I kicked the leg support out on the couch. He couldn't wait to nap on my lap while I was napping. He would sometimes decide he was done with my lap and force me out of my spot so that he could sleep there. Of course I usually let him. He was wicked smart. He loved to play fetch and when the mouse landed somewhere unexpected, he would search and search until he found it. It could be as long as five minutes. He was always calm when Uryuu scruffed him. He would relax and twist out of it. He almost always won the tussles that they had. He he was the best big brother a kitten could have. He was so excited when Opal moved in. He played with her very gently from the start. He also made sure the Uryuu didn't hurt her. Opal misses him something fearce. He very rarely meowed. We expected a Siamese to be talking all the time. When he did speak up, you knew he had something important to say. It also felt very much that he was here for a purpose. In hind sight, I think that purpose was my transition. Almost immediately after I admitted that I was transgender, he started kneading my belly. He NEVER did that before. He continued doing it through his illness. I seemed to have been happy that I was now his mommy. Once he was confident that I was solidly on my path, it was time for him to move on. He was only with us for 8 years.
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18/7/2017 0 Comments 8 Months of EstrogenYesterday was my 8 month anniversary of HRT. It has been a most wonderful experience!
Physically, I have seen huge changes. It really has surprised me, since I am older. Usually the older you are, the last subtle the changes will be. I have had fairly dramatic increases in my hips and thighs, along with my butt! Pants and skirts now hang great. I have also lost some muscle mass around my chest and my breasts are pretty much an A cup at this time, with definite growth still happening. I expect that a B will be in my future. But, all of those things aside, my brain feels right. It really started to respond soon after and has only gotten better. Yes, I cry more easily, which I like, but I also laugh more too. I have had a couple times where I just couldn't stop laughing. It felt great! I am also far more expensive in my communication! And girlfriends! OMG, I never knew what that was like! I absolutely love it! Anyway, those are some of the highlights for me of being on HRT. I have absolutely no regrets! 11/7/2017 0 Comments I have been spending most of my free time these days in the Twitterverse. I have connected with a great bunch of trans women there. Thoughts, ideas and friendships spanning the globe! It's been really fun!
I finally got around to updating my name on all of our household bills yesterday. I think I have to deal with two old 401K accounts still. I should get on that. Yesterday I got the results of my latest estradiol test. I have gone from a low 74 to a nice mid 211 level. Still waiting for my birth certificate to arrive. Any day now please. And I need to update my passport too. Oh, the fun! Especially since my old one is over 5 years expired! 7/7/2017 1 Comment The "Hobo" IncidentI do not have many memories of my childhood. I have never reall had a clear grasp of why, but more and more, I am feeling that much of that might be do to my gender dysphoria.
One memory that recently came up that I do think is related to that was one of my birthday parties. I don't remember the age, but I must have 7 give or take a year. Since I was born near Halloween, costume parties were always I likely event for my birthday. So so this one year the theme was "hobo". We had games and things set up in or basement and my neighborhood friends all dressed up like bums. Mom had gotten me my own clothes for the party and the plan was to give my 5 o'clock shadow using Vaseline and coffee grounds. Well, the day of the party I absolutely refused to dress the part. Now, this could be pure conjecture on my party, but now I am thinking that this refusal to get dressed was the gender dysphoria telling me not to. Somewhere I have pictures of the party. I need to dig around and see if I can find them. 5/7/2017 0 Comments Thoughts on the last 9 MonthsIt is hard to believe that it has now been over 9 months since I officially started my life as a transgender woman! My wife and I are considering our 15th wedding anniversary as the start date of my transition. It was the day I told my first family members. It was a glorious day!
Since that day, my life has been so wonderful. It would have been unimaginable to my old self that life could be this fantastic. Physically, my body is absolutely loving the new hormones! I body has changed so much in the almost 8 months that I have been on estradiol. I have hips and a butt and OMG boobs! I didn't think that at 53 years of age, I would have such dramatic changes in such a short time, and the changes will still continue for a couple more years! I am one fortunate girl. I am also far more expressive! I talk much more with my hands than I did in the past and my use of language is much freer. Slowly, I am getting on my voice and I hear from people more and more how natural it sounds. I am getting ma'amed on the phone now too! My friendships are deeper than I ever thought they could be. I have new girlfriends that I love hanging out with and sharing with. Something that I always wanted in life, but was denied because I was a "guy". And my feelings towards children have changed too! I have always been uncomfortable around children, but now I am more and more finding them exciting to be around! I am sure I could go on, but these are some of the highlights of the last 9 months. I can't wait to see where the future goes! |
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