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22/1/2018 1 Comment Being a Pinup!A month or so ago, a local pinup studio set up a drawing for a free photo shoot for Valentine's Day. Last Thursday, I got a call telling me that I had won! OMG! I was so excited! The shoot was on Saturday, so I had to find time to get my nails done before had, which I did Friday evening.
Saturday, I get to the studio and was given a brief tour. While waiting for makeup, we looked through dresses and I found one that I looked great in! I think I want to find one like it. I was then given a nice robe and it was into the makeup chair The woman that did my makeup is amazing! She has been voted best in town for the last 2 years! She did such a wonderful job! Hair was next and that, too, was amazing! They did such a wonderful job! We then spent the next hour or more doing picture. Christi is so wonderful! She made me feel so comfortable and coached me along all of the way. Part way through, she showed me one of the pictures on the camera and I started crying. I looked so beautiful. I just couldn't believe it. We took a break at that time and uploaded the pictures to the screen. Of course, there were more tears! We went back for more shots and repeated the crying again! Followed by one more round of pictures and tears. After we finished, there were lots more hugs and tears! If you make it to Minnesota, seriously consider doing this! It might seem a bit expensive, but trust me, it is so worth it! https://www.grinkiegirls.com/
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11/1/2018 0 Comments My Theory of ArousalOK, I am going to talk about something I have been thinking a lot about lately, and that is arousal. More specifically, how my arousal has changed since starting HRT 14 months ago.
So, before I started on HRT, I was very easily aroused. It was so ridiculous how often I had to take care of business. It was usually every day, many more than once. Now, after being on HRT for quite a while now, I must say, if it happens once a week, that's just fine with me. The sensations I feel now are so much better than how it felt running on testosterone. I feel very satisfied afterwords. Now on to my theory. Talking with many women this past year, pretty much all of them have the same thing to say. I was I was more interested in sex. This got me thinking about the differences between men and women. Men tend to be ready to go at the drop of a hat. Women on the other hand tend to like a slow build to the big finish. I am pretty damned confident that is where our new operating system has taken us. I think we need to learn that we just need to set aside some time to romance our selves and then we can start to relearn how our sense of arousal has changed. It is hard to break that programming that testosterone instilled in us, but we can change it. I think we even should change it, but of course, everyone is different. I know for me, quick and dirty is no longer what I want. The long, slow build feels so wonderful. I look forward to the times I get to spend with myself, exploring how my body has changed, and continues to change. 2/1/2018 3 Comments Dysphoria Rears its Ugly Head!After spending much of the year without much in the line of dysphoria, I am finding that it is hitting my more and more often these days, and it is hitting me in one spot!
My genitals! I started transition fully wanting to have my junk intact and working, but as the year has gone by, it is becoming painfully obvious that I cannot stand my penis. Pretty much anytime I am in the bathroom, I cringe when I am pulling my panties back on. Soon, I will be saying goodbye to my testicles, but I am now, more and more wishing that I had a vagina. Sometimes it gets really unbearable. The surgery scares the crap out of me, but damn it! I want a vagina! And I want it now! I will be talking with my therapist quite a bit about this these next few sessions. Maybe it is something I can take care of in 2019. 2/1/2018 0 Comments SeattleHome now after spending a week in Washington state for Christmas. We had a big family gathering at my mom's house. It was a really nice day. Many family members that hadn't seen me in person yet as my self. Everyone seemed very accepting. The next day, my wife and I went to Seattle to visit friends. It was wonderful. The day I dropped my wife off at the train station to head home, I had a get together planned with a bunch of women I knew through Twitter. It was such a fabulous night! I wish I could have spent more time with them! Here are some photos from the night. I cannot wait to see them again!
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